It's been a while since I've written a blog. In fact, I logged in to write this and found a draft with a similar subject header already in process and thought it appropriate to keep. I say that to say that these matters I'm about to discuss run deep and are not about one administration but about some deep-reaching heart matters that keep resurfacing. Since it's bubbling in my heart for some time, it's also a long blog so yeah...just a heads up...
You see, Martin Luther King, Jr has been on my mind quite a bit the last few weeks--and not just because it was his birthday in January. No. That isn't it. You see, I've seen a lot of posts on social media and heard several people saying that, in essence, they wish that people would stop talking about the challenges of our new administration. On my own posts (which have expressed sadness, fury and confusion), I've gotten a mixture of responses--some wishing I would stop stirring the pot of conversation, others saying that I'm "spewing rhetoric", some challenging my sources or ability to think for myself beyond mainstream media, some saying we just need to pray and some in agreement with my sentiments/words. It's been interesting to see/read to say the least and I've watched the comments, trying not to be offended, and relishing in the engagement of people to say and discuss that which they are passionate about. I guess I could delete people's comments from my page who I don't agree with, but what good is that? Where is there freedom if not in the exchange of thought--including the room to disagree? And so, I don't usually engage in debate. I state my opinion. Beyond that, my thought is a reader can do with that what they want (as long as they're not completely rude). It's not my job to convince anyone of my point of view but it is my job to speak...but wait...I'm getting ahead of myself.
Back to Martin Luther King, Jr. The thought I had rolling around in my head the last few weeks was more of a set of questions: What if he (and the others who served with him) remained silent? What if he decided not to "stir the pot"? What if, as a pastor, he chose to
only pray? What if he only took a "wait and see" stance and hoped for the best? Where would we be? And I wonder the age-old question WWJD...What would Jesus do?
People have argued that it's not about religion or that it's not about race, but I would argue to the contrary based on what I've seen and heard over the last couple of years and, in particular, the last few weeks. IT (whatever it is that has come up) usually is about that very thing that people are so scared to label it as. I've watched and listened as people have even challenged my Christian responsibility as a pastor and leader, suggesting that I NOT say things that incite debate or division. What I know to be true is that my words are not meant to incite division though they may
highlight and
expose a division that is
already there. I sometimes want to scream "Where have YOU been living???!" at comments from people who say this wasn't like this before. No. It just wasn't public. It's as if people assume that when the Civil Rights Act passed or
Ms. Magazine was published suddenly all was right with the world. It is America's well/not-so-well-camouflaged dirty little secret that the Land of the Free has an addendum to that statement that says "land of the free FOR SOME". Don't get me wrong. I love being an American, but we are definitely still a work in progress. Having a conversation in which there is not agreement but there is a respectful exchange of thought and emotion is
not contrary to my Christian belief. Even Jesus in his meekness and humility was not a complete pacifist. He didn't avoid conversation with those who challenged him. He merely spoke truth and kept it moving. He challenged people to challenge their own thoughts and beliefs. He didn't argue with people. He didn't debate. But He
did not remain silent. Paul, the writer of much of the New Testament, called people out left and right about how their actions did or did not match up with true Christian thought. He guided people in action and in word. He did not remain silent.
My name is Andrea and I am a non-American born, black, female, Christian, American pastor who has a voice. Like every person in this world with a voice (and any number of social media accounts), I have influence. I know my influence. I have authority in Christ and I have small amounts of influence with my words and photographs. So it becomes my choice how I want to use that voice and that influence. Making statements that clearly say "I'm angry" or "I don't agree" don't say "You should be angry" or "You should agree with me" but they do start a conversation. I'm human. I would love for everyone to agree with me or at least hear me and not make me want to cringe with their responses; but what I want more than agreement is for learning and challenging and understanding to go forward. That leaves room for me to be wrong as well as others or for us to decide that "it's not wrong, it's just different".
However I can't lie (or provide an "alternate fact" should I say?), I was having a hard time
understanding how people voted for D. Trump and how he became our 45th President. Overall, grace covers them and me in this journey. I'm not one of those people who would begrudge him his win or say that it should be revoked. I didn't call for a recount. I believe in the democratic process and am not tied to my team "winning". Though my opinion of him is not high (to say the least) and I've publicly said as much, he
is my president. I do pray for him in positive ways and strive to serve him
that way--through prayer. But I also call him to the service he was elected to serve me and not just the interests of a particular group. And so I have to pray even for myself and others like me that we will be proven wrong in our opinions, and he'll serve the greater American good. However, that doesn't mean I don't still struggle to understand. I can't help but remark about things that don't make sense to me (like "alternate facts" and someone with an approved green card being turned away from the country in the airport). Me writing and sharing this shows my struggle and hope to be understood.
I don't understand how we tell our kids not to bully and then give a bully the highest office in US government; or how anyone says that acts that HE SAID were continuations of his campaign promises to shut out Muslims are not religious because he wisely/tactfully/craftily/sneakily made a plan that didn't say that outright because that wouldn't be legal (like someone who figures out how to simply get what they want without breaking the law...is that ethical and right even if it's legal???); or how we can be humanitarians who would go to the ends of the earth to help people but are ultimately more concerned about our bank accounts (yes...us having to spend more money) than our neighbor up the street's ability to get and maintain healthcare and live above the poverty lines; or how someone can say that a person who generalized a whole group of non-white people from a specific place as rapists and murderers is not in any way racist and that I (a non-white person) can trust him fully to govern me and a country of all races with a just hand; or how we look at misogynist statements he made only a few years ago as "old news" and think that his groping hands have been reformed and that he thinks highly of women despite his past words and behavior? I just don't understand. I know that people said they voted for him
despite these atrocities and as retaliation to injustices they have felt under the previous administration. But, I've struggled to reconcile that my friends who I respect, like, and love (still do) of all races and religious backgrounds and careers chose that over
anything else.
I struggle because I take what he has said and who he has been in the past personally. VERY PERSONALLY. And so my bigger struggle is reconciling how you can like and support him and still like and support me? Is it even possible? Is it possible to say to someone "I love you" but then put someone in office who has the potential to completely ruin me
personally? I come from a family of immigrants for whom the immigration process is still a relevant part of our lives--not like we just immigrated back in 1900 and then it's over but like today who have stakes in this immigration game. I'd like to know that my father is not in danger of being stopped at the borders because of his faith or the fact that he is a naturalized citizen and not born in the US (and don't say it's not possible because if they can revoke visas that were vetted and block entry for green-card carriers or people seeking REFUGE for health and/or political reasons then nothing is off limits). I know people who were on the verge of financial ruin because of major illness events like cancer who aren't working (so savings plans wouldn't work for them) and who need coverage for "preexisting conditions"; and I myself have preexisting conditions that worry me when thinking of the availability of healthcare to me. I have brothers and cousins and friends who would and have been unfairly targeted by "stop and frisk" laws that have been promised to return on a more widespread level. I have god-daughters who need to know that it's not okay to be treated unfairly as girls or inappropriately touched but we have a president who admits to doing so to women. Like I said, I take it personal.
And I wonder if MLK was the same. Did he take it personal? At what moment did he stop being pissed off in private and shift towards joining a public movement? What is that moment, that issue, that cause that drives someone from just being a part of the crowd to leading the crowd despite others telling them to be silent? Where is the line that is crossed that moves someone from church-going to church-BEing (doers and not just hearers of The Word)? And does speaking out take me out of line with the church? What makes someone like a Martin Luther King or Gandhi or Mother Theresa and the like use their voices with such grace and power and take that risk of being heard? What is the point that pushes them to action and out of a pray only and wait position? Those are the questions I ask myself as I struggle with all that has been going on and all that has been said. I am not a believer who thinks that every person we put in office must be Christian. If given a choice, I would vote for a non-Christian who has a humanitarian heart and whose actions reflect love and wisdom and global understanding over a mean Christian. I don't always vote party lines (much to some people's chagrin), and I certainly don't vote because someone is black or a woman like me. Perhaps that's just me. I'm smarter than that and I'm insulted when people assume otherwise.
I try not to be judgmental, but I know that I fail miserably as I think thoughts like how can we elevate a man whose actions and words say "I don't care about all people" and then tell people that they should "love God show that they love him through their love of others"? I don't understand and I have to repent
often when my thoughts go in that judgmental direction. It's not mine to judge Trump's faith or relationship with God. But that's easier said than done and I can say that his political actions do not reflect my hopes and dreams for humanity regardless of religion. Period.
So what
would Jesus have done? What would Jesus' Twitter feed and Facebook timeline look like? Would it be filled with pictures of kittens or of headlines? I'm not sure. I'm
tryin to be like Jesus but definitely not there yet. What I know for sure is that I simply cannot be silent. I think about Esther and I believe that we are given a voice "for such a time as this". Hopefully we approach it with humility and grace. Hopefully we give room for all voices to be heard and not just our own. Hopefully we welcome counter-action and encourage reactions that don't match ours. Hopefully we are prayerful about the words that we use and the actions that we take. I know that's my goal. Before I hit "POST" on anything that may be politically charged you read, I've thought (and usually prayed) it out. And though my words may match the rhetoric of the press, I choose my own words...we just happen to agree (ex. I purposely chose the word "refugee" even though the executive order was for immigrants because I think of most immigrants as seeking refuge and know that that is the base definition of the word "refugee").
And then I go back to where I started...MLK. I was reminded in my times of prayer and reflection that, as an African American community, the church has been a central place of community action. I was reminded that we didn't have the luxury of position outside of the church so this "church leaders must be silent and just pray" ideology is simply not in line with my personal cultural understanding of life. To use the words that even Ivanka Trump quoted of Malcolm X "If not now, then when? If not me, then who?" Community action/humanitarian advocacy and religious understanding have been inextricably linked throughout the centuries. While I am not saying that D. Trump is Hitler or that his actions are as bad, I do know that silence from the church and much of the world outside of the church is how Hitler rose to power so craftily and how one man could change the direction of history for a whole people group one "small", "insignificant" order at a time. And, in retrospect to Hitler's regime, the great Holocaust survivor, Nobel Peace Prize winner Ellie Wiesel said "The opposite of love is not hate but
indifference." And there are so many more...so many more great words by great people who have lived through points in history that we would
all agree are charged with division and hatred. I just don't want to be indifferent. I don't want us to ignore history and fall into the same trap where we sit back and relax in our comfortable worlds.
And so it goes...my
first response has been and will continue to be prayer because that's what God says it should be. (2 Chronicles 7:14) But even in this verse that we call upon we must remember to not ignore the part that says "turn"...there is ACTION that God calls us to. How we turn and what that looks like? I am not sure. So I'll continue to seek God's face and ask Him to give me wisdom before I speak, before I march, before I write and before I hit "POST" or "SUBMIT". I'm no MLK, but I do have a voice. I will call out bad behavior and try to make sure that my behavior isn't equally bad. I will challenge mean words and try to make sure that my words are not also mean. In all, I will try to honor God and use my voice with wisdom and boldness.
Thanks for reading.
Pastor Andrea
You see, Martin Luther King, Jr has been on my mind quite a bit the last few weeks--and not just because it was his birthday in January. No. That isn't it. You see, I've seen a lot of posts on social media and heard several people saying that, in essence, they wish that people would stop talking about the challenges of our new administration. On my own posts (which have expressed sadness, fury and confusion), I've gotten a mixture of responses--some wishing I would stop stirring the pot of conversation, others saying that I'm "spewing rhetoric", some challenging my sources or ability to think for myself beyond mainstream media, some saying we just need to pray and some in agreement with my sentiments/words. It's been interesting to see/read to say the least and I've watched the comments, trying not to be offended, and relishing in the engagement of people to say and discuss that which they are passionate about. I guess I could delete people's comments from my page who I don't agree with, but what good is that? Where is there freedom if not in the exchange of thought--including the room to disagree? And so, I don't usually engage in debate. I state my opinion. Beyond that, my thought is a reader can do with that what they want (as long as they're not completely rude). It's not my job to convince anyone of my point of view but it is my job to speak...but wait...I'm getting ahead of myself.
