Despite my silence, my adventure hasn't ended. After much prayer and pulling from the Lord, I made a decision to take another step closer to Him off this boat on the water. It has meant leaving friends (who have become family) behind and really stretching my faith in ways that I didn't realize needed to be stretched. And, the truth is...it's lonely out here...
Maybe one day I'll spend some time really exploring THAT, but I just needed to check in and share some good news. As a whole, God has been dealing with me about being even more vulnerable and fully exposed for Him--not allowing fear to have any foothold in my faith walk. With this tugging on my spirit, I had to face the facts: I'd been hiding. The only way I can explain it is that it's like I stepped out on faith, left my home (like Abraham), and then pulled the car over in a rest area. But I've decided that I refuse to get stuck here. My key is in the ignition and I'm pulling out back on the road of my faith. As a step in this direction, I spent some time doing some things that truly make me feel "exposed".
First, I loaded a few sermon clips on YouTube (YIKES!) and then, today, I did something exciting and finally finished converting my book (yes...I wrote a book for those who don't know) to digital availability on Kindle. Yep...I'm feeling extra exposed and started thinking of all the negatives that could come out of this. So I had to get online and take a stand against those thoughts. I'm stopping the chatter in my head and replacing it with the positive. Say it with me:
I'M MOVING IN FAITH!
I'M NOT AFRAID OF FAILURE!
I'M NOT AFRAID OF SUCCESS!
I'M FULLY SURRENDERED TO GOD'S WILL!
IT'S OKAY TO BE SCARED AS LONG AS I KEEP WALKING...
GOD'S GOT MY BACK.
I AM TRIUMPHANT FOR AND THROUGH HIM!
Any questions?
Blessings from the water,
A
